He feels like he wasted the weekend (which he often does) and that he is running out of time
^^^YES! This is a big deal for H. He is always convinced there is no time, and acts as though someone other than himself stops him from accomplishing things. He obsesses at times about dying young, thinks he's already dead, gets mad at himself for not following through on his creative pursuits, and makes a lot of "should" statements. "I'm almost 40, I should have published a novel/comic/whatever by now." "I'm almost 40 and we're not having kids and I should have something else as a legacy."
I get frustrated with these comments because he is the reason for all of them. HE stops himself from writing because his story is not "perfect". HE dragged his feet about getting married until we were both at an age where having kids is likely not going to happen (I am almost 40 myself, lady-issues run in my family, and I don't relish lots of miscarriages to try to have a child like my mother had). He seems to finally be realizing and admitting his roles in where he is now, and sadly, it triggers that shame that pwBPD have such a hard time processing.
I'm like, I made a decision, second guessing it forever is just maddening, and I accept the bed I made. He can't seem to do that.
I offered to foil over the window if it'd help him sleep, but his response was "if it's paranormal, foil won't help."
I try to tell him that it's okay to rest on weekends, and that he DID get things done that needed doing (sure, it was just his own laundry, but it was something).