Now I'd like to share some of the
I have encountered with my uBPDgf and chcek if its common hearing something like this from them. Im over 1 month NC but I feel like I need kind of validation from you, that I was really blind to those
and that wasnt normal behaviour. Let's begin, shall we?
1) very early in rs she admitted that before she got interested
with me she was checking if other guy was avaliable
2) "If I wasnt with you I would probably be with <put a name here>"
3) "Im broken" "Im not good material for gf" "Sorry that im a dissapointment"
4) when I got back tired from university or work "Why arent you happy, cant you see that your being not happy affects me, why cant u just be happy and optimistic"
5) Jealousy. Reallt extreme one. Real girls and stuff was not enough. As we both are gamers, she said that she dont want me to play female characters, she was jelly even about those pixels
6) When I was tired of being triangulated and told her that maybe she wants that other guy more than me she said "If I end up with him, it will be only beacuse of your fault" (he is my replacement now  
7) She never liked my own hobbies/games. When I started talking about something I love eg sailing/computer game she never played she was always like "I could never do this because blah blah"
8) She barely finished her high school because of depression (attendance provlems and stuff). She used to study for one semester than resigned. She was afraid of her low education but when I said that when I finish my current studies we may try something together (well I was alwahs open for new experiences) she said that she doenst want to study, that shes too old for that (22 yo ) blah blah.
9) She used to cut herself, ofc I told her I won't accept any cutting and she stopped, but during one breakup (1 day long), she told me that she cut herself ( cuz of me ofc) and that she wasnt feeling like being with me at that time so she could do that. (Then my gut tolde me that one day she may try simillat trick with going to bed of someone else)
10) She had 1 bf b4 me and ofc he was that bad abbusive jerk, who wished her death when he broke up with her (woo she must have been worse than with me, or I was more doormat) but she still had photos and items (very expensive tablet he biught her eg.) and during our rs she admitted that he wasnt that bad and that she wasnt perfect aswell. Whats more during one of our dramas she said that he msgd her (what a coincieence! I guess she reached for him then or it was a lie) and was soothing her. Week later she told me that he wanted to meet her (poor basterd got sucked back kind of now I see this that way).
11) "Maybe I will go back to my ex" - when she was upset with me. They were even talking about getting back together (setting up plan b?), but they agreed that their rs was toxic (I guess he said that and she had to agree?)
12) she had a job that she was rly happy with (she was working from home) and that she is afraid that if she lose that job she will never find another one. Well now when she is with wealthy mr. Replacement, info about her job magically dissapeared from her FB page.
Ok enough of those, I had to vent a bit. Maybe I will cone up with more of this but its enough for now. Peace