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I know that I now feel the need to ask permission to do anything alone. And she is so mean. She is confusing and manages to make everything my fault. She doesn't appear to care about me anymore. I continue to try to make her happy but I am running out of steam. My business is just treading water. I only work and parent and husband.
Few things.
Can you keep your life the same for a few weeks, while you learn about ways to make it better? Many of the things we will teach you need to be applied consistently. Applied inconsistently they can actually make things worse.
Can you give us a he said she said example from the last argument you had... where you tried to keep her happy?
start learning about what you may be facing.
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