Believing those crazy lies...

[AustenJ]

Ever wake up in the middle of the night where your eyes just snap open and you are wide awake because your asleep mind has been ruminating about something?
That happened to me this morning... .it's a weird feeling.

I had been thinking about the exBPDgf and all of the cheating she did and the subsequent lying about all that cheating... .and believing those crazy lies... .

I had a close friend who had children at the school my ex worked at before my school. And my ex would always do a lot of summer nannying for those school families where she would either stay with the family and lounge at their pools or their country club pools with the kids, or would have long weekend stays with students when parents were out of town. She would also get invited to many parent drinking parties... .and she was only 22 then... .a first year teacher... .my oh my... .so many lines crossed... .

After my discard, when I reached out to my golf buddy about his connection to my ex he sent just a two word text: stear clear. Obviously, I should have reached out a lot sooner! When he elaborated he said there were many rumors about her seducing fathers of students and there was mounting concern about her lack of professionalism with parents and other staff. She was about to get fired when she got recruited by my building principal in the middle of last year. My principal's new wife, of course, used my ex as a summer nanny for her kids... wow... .it's amazing what we begin to see when removed from the addiction... .

Right before going NC I had a text conversation with my ex where part of our conversation addressed her cheating... .specifically with parents of students at her former school... .she "swore on her father's grave" that she did not sleep with parents. That was the first time she ever swore on her father's grave in our entire 5 months... .

In talking to my nephew who dated a borderline and is a cop, he said in police training 101 when someone swears on a relative's grave about telling the truth, that means 100% that they are lying. Yesterday my T confirmed that also... .

The revelation that she slept with parents of students should not come as a shock to me since my daughter was a student of hers last year in my exe's first year at the school... .and my daughter hated her... .another red flag missed.

I am so happy to be NC and getting out of that relationship... .

[UnforgivenII]

It is so hard to believe they are made in this way. No remorse,  no shame.
Sending you peace. I hope you will have a good rest tonight.