She asked me for space...

[lego_boy]

We had a lot of trouble in almost two years of relationship, but this time she does not need me. She goes on with her life, or tries to, and never contacted me. I sent her a text saying that I loved her and I was here for her, because I know in the past she could use a reminder, but she replied coldly, like she don't need me anymore. I feel devastated, her last words are the most painful words I ever heard.

I can't comprehend the pain she's going through, the fact that I gave up on her and now she's giving up on me.
I did everything wrong in this relationship, I treated her like a child sometimes, I closed myself and slipped into apathy not to make her mad: and it all make it worse.

I'm so disappointed by myself, even if I know sometimes I had my reasons to. No matter what reason may say, I let her down and I feel devastated.
And yet, even if she will talk to me again I don't know what I'm going to say.

P.S. English s not my first language, sorry about that. Thank you for reading.

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[Meili]

I want to welcome you to the bpdfamily. I'm sorry for what brought you here, but I'm hopeful that now that you're here, you'll find the advice and support that you need.

I know that it's hard right now, but try not to be too hard on yourself. We all do the best that we can with what we have to work with at the moment. As a result, we all make mistakes. I'm certain that if you read the posts of others here, you'll quickly see that most of us make the same mistakes that others have. I know that I did!

You indicated that you initially left the relationship, why did you do that? What lead up to it?

I would suggest that you continue to read the posts, read the articles contained on this web site, and some of the recommended books. Educate yourself as best you can about BPD. The more you know, the easier any decision you make will be.