That light bulb moment of finally getting the diagnosis

[Rosetab]

All i can say is WOW! After a very long grueling 3 days of ambulances, RCMP and search dogs we have come out of the last suicide attempt exhausted and overwhelmed. Out of all the trauma we have finally been given the gift of a diagnosis of BPD. Its been a long 5 years or i guess since my daughter went to school in kindergarten. Her first week of school consisted of freaking out that i wasn't going to come back to get her and now i understand why. The times when she was younger and i sent her and her brother to spend time with her father she would be miserable and want to come home. The feeling of guilt that i have for forcing her into such painful situations. I see it all so clearly now and how scared she must have been. Now she is 17 how do i deal with her upcoming freedom and me wanting to be so protective and keep her in my bubble to keep her safe. If i could only go back and handle it all knowing what i know now maybe it wouldn't have escalated.
Now i find that i am overwhelmed with so much information and the realization of seeing what has always been there for her it is a lot to take in all at once. I have had her in therapy for years but nobody ever pinpointed what was wrong. She has agreed to carry on with therapy but is refusing the meds. From what i have been reading that meds can help but therapy is more important so hopefully our therapist can now teach us all some coping skills.
My problem now is trying give my mind a rest and not try to take in too much information at once its very overwhelming.   

Our objective is to better understand the struggles our child faces and to learn the skills to improve our relationship and provide a supportive environment and also improve on our own emotional responses, attitudes and effectiveness as a family leaders

[hope2727]

I am so glad your daughter is ok. I am glad you are ok too. Please take gentle care of yourself. I wanted to thank you for writing this sentence.

Out of all the trauma we have finally been given the gift of a diagnosis of BPD.

This really resonated with me. I am looking for a thesis or capstone project for my masters degree and I keep coming back to the controversy of to diagnosis or not. To me it seems a positive thing but the psychological community at large (or at least in my area) is quite anti diagnosis/label/stigma. So your sentence really hit me at a very visceral level. Thank you.

I will send you some positive thoughts and prayers. I am so glad the RCMP were supportive and helped you. I hope the upcoming week will bring you some rest and self care. I wish I could buy you a double double and give you a giant hug.     

Thinking of you.