Posting this here as not many get it

[Idsrvt2]

Some of you know my story...
My x got a false RO on me and I filed one on him... he's my letter carrier as well...

So the cooling off period as they call it ended ten days ago... .my mail has resumed as I never put it on hold the first judge did so temporarily
My x wanted everything dropped as I don't think he predicted he would loose all his firearms or I would file on him.
I was in a high period of stress and my health was quite bad.
I still deal with health issues and I'm disabled... .something I don't think anyone grasped including the post office ,,,I still have anger at them for not removing him... but ah well.
I don't have anger towards my x anymore

So of course as the universe loves to test us... .I have an eBay sale... .before he painted me black or whatever he did ... as I'm not sure he is BPD or maybe npd , with other mental illness ... I would just schedule a pickup... .
but I don't think I'm ready for him to be on my porch
It's not a normal breakup where you can say look I'm sorry for it all let's just have some peace now
He's not capable

This situation is just odd in that if I was painted so black why still stay around me? Why make up lies to your boss so much so the other guy that delivers looks at me oddly 
And now mail is resumed and he can easily deliver it... .just nutz
The irony is they all think he is gay ... his boss was baffled we were in a relationship. 
I'm a peace making person... .this is difficult , but I don't feel like I should go without mail any longer either.