Hi Nicolina, I am glad you found something to help validate reality. It can be crazy making to be in a relationship when someone we love treats us so harshly. It makes us question all we thought we knew and believed about love, and absolutely shatter our view of the world. How nice that you have access to a counselor to help you sort this out. I saw some nice videos on YouTube by a woman named Kati Morton and they can be nice to access on the days you need to hear a sweet, reasonable voice that can explain these issues. Is your husband also seeking any kind of therapy? My partner does not have all, but many of the BPD traits, enough to make life a total rollercoaster. Like UKhusband mentions in his post, keep your own health in mind as well. This can take a real toll physically and mentally. We are here and we understand. Take care!