Hi Colhouse,
I"m sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. It can be pretty lonely trying to navigate through a BPD relationship on your own. You've found a great place because although you don't have any tools to use, we do! YOu can find a lot of really great workshops on the right side of the page that will help you learn how to communicate better with your pwBPD.
What behavior from your gf makes you most nervous about her coming home?
To get you started on our workshops, here is a link to
The Dos and Don'ts of a BPD Relationship