hello and very confused at the moment

[wonka kitten]

Hi so Let me try to be short. Where to start *insert crazed cackle*
Adult Child of BPDmom, current bf possibly as well? I'm triggered a LOT. Yeah boring right? Add to the mix: ex hubby close friend father of my kids has stage 4 colon cancer. Oh then I got fired for something ridiculous. And let's not forget just taking on gaurdianship of son #1 who has schizophrenia. Or the terminal illness of my middle one who has survived being born with only 3 heart chambers, three open heart surgeries, only to find out he can never get a transplant now because his surgeries side effect is cirrhosis of the liver. He's 20. OK? So back to the current. Am I just being triggered bc first loving relationship ever and love is sp freaking hard and scary for me, fear of engulfment etc etc. OR is this wonderful sweet man alive, who makes me so happy, is cycling into pathalogical jealousy is it fear of abandonment? OR is he BPD and thats why I was so drawn in and holy ___ getmethe___outtahere right meow

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[pearlsw]

Hi wonka kitten,

There is a lot going here to say the least! It is no wonder you are feeling so stressed!

Are you saying you are in a loving relationship, but that is making you feel insecure because it's not typical for you? Or am I not following you? Does he seem to have BPD traits? Are you getting love bombed?

warmly, pearl.

[Tattered Heart]

Hi wonka,

Welcome You have quite a bit on your plate. I can imagine that would create quite a bit of stress. What are you doing to take care of yourself?

What would you say is the biggest issue in your relationship?