It hasn't been a long time since I've spoken with her, but given the few weeks I've gone without talking to her (longest since I've known her) I can say that I feel significantly better and the best part is it's all uphill from here.
I wish I could've begun NC the moment she broke up with me. These few weeks have totally changed things.
great to hear you are making strong progress. life is too short to spend it with people that cause us unhappiness.
i had to put my ex as the centre of my universe, anything less wasnt acceptable. but when I did this, she then became the puppet master of my emotions and it was a far cry from pulling the strings in a way that would make someone feel it was worth it.
to the original poster: i can only confirm what others have said, not to assume anything from the melodramatic "i dont love you now, your out my life forever". these are childish statements that come from an emotionally arrested individual.
they may, or may not come back, but i disagree with your feeling that you have been "permanently" painted black.
rest assured that if they find themselves in desperate need of you, and there is no other available (to put up with their insanity), then you can find yourself loved again beyond forever and ever... .(until the next opportunist discard comes along).
i was put through this rinse cycle more than enough and despite now the longest period of NC, there have been instances of ex's shamelessly returning back YEARS later out of the woodwork.
