I am very sorry to hear that things are so difficult for you right now, and it is great to see you reaching out for help and support - a very brave and scary thing to do!
Unfortunately, our site requires the members to be at least 18 years old. There are resources for teens of the type you're seeking. Please check out:
www.teenhelp.org Your Life Your Voice
www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/AskIt/Pages/default.aspx1-800-448-3000
www.teenhealthandwellness.com/static/hotlinesI would also like to encourage you to talk to your school counselor or school social worker about your struggles right now. Having a person to confide in can be very helpful. I wish you well in your search.