So stressful is it worth it?
each of us has to decide this personally.
i notice though, that you primarily pose these questions from a place of frustration, disappear, come back to ask a similar question and disappear again.
nothing changes without changes. i think it would go a long way to get specific about the ongoing issues in your relationship, get feedback, engage the responses, and start to work the tools... .much easier to make an informed decision that way.
what do you think?