Not sure what I can do anymore

[Bern7472]

Hi everyone

I'm in s relationship with a person who has borderline personality disorder and narcissistic PD.
It's been 2 years and the hardest 2 years of my life ..
When he is good he's good but when he's not watch out he has this way of makig me feel like crap for no reason but he seems to make an issue out of nothing and blaming me and  making me feel like I did something wrong. when hes in his bad mood he wont talk to me  doesn't want to be around me so he goes to work even on weekends.. doesn't matter how hard I  try to not do anything to piss him off he finds something and if it's in the past he'll still punish me for it.
I put an Avo out on him couple of months ago he was even charged with DV we can now have contact.. he is more abusive psychologicaly than physical he pushed me to the ground helped me up gave me an ice pack and left, this went on all weekend he came back home and drank beer all day getting angrier and angrier.. he then called me so many bad names yelling at me he got up out of the chair and pushed me away around my throat.
He was so ashamed when he was charged wrote me a letter telling me that he was sorry .
That lasted a while. We go to court next month for the charges and I have to testify against him.. He now blames me for all of it.. it was my fault what happened thats so hard to take ..
Does it ever get better.. I wish I didn't love him

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[Bern7472]

Hi everyone

I'm in s relationship with a person who has borderline personality disorder and narcissistic PD.
It's been 2 years and the hardest 2 years of my life ..
When he is good he's good but when he's not watch out he has this way of makig me feel like crap for no reason but he seems to make an issue out of nothing and blaming me and  making me feel like I did something wrong. when hes in his bad mood he wont talk to me  doesn't want to be around me so he goes to work even on weekends.. doesn't matter how hard I  try to not do anything to piss him off he finds something and if it's in the past he'll still punish me for it.
I put an Avo out on him couple of months ago he was even charged with DV we can now have contact.. he is more abusive psychologicaly than physical he pushed me to the ground helped me up gave me an ice pack and left, this went on all weekend he came back home and drank beer all day getting angrier and angrier.. he then called me so many bad names yelling at me he got up out of the chair and pushed me away around my throat.
He was so ashamed when he was charged wrote me a letter telling me that he was sorry .
That lasted a while. We go to court next month for the charges and I have to testify against him.. He now blames me for all of it.. it was my fault what happened thats so hard to take ..
Does it ever get better.. I wish I didn't love him
How do other people herenl cope with this

[Turkish]

Do you in any way feel it is your fault?  Are you safe now until court?

That must be very tough,  testifying,  yet still loving him.