Hey Quantum
She essentially said God had told her through a nightmare, with a frightening abandonment scenario, that we should break up. We both love each other dearly
Its a difficult thing that fear of abandonment: on one side you're too loved/close/precious that they fear you'll hurt them if/when you leave them, on the other if you "give them space" you're too distant/cold/uncaring and they have to let you go.
The feelings are extreme to them, so its hard to find a middle ground.
But two weeks ago after I was kidding her , she texted me back
Notice how when things were "lighter" she felt comfortable enough around you to hang out. Don't give her too hard of a love bearhug, you might be squishing her emotional bones a bit
We then went out and had a great time. Afterwhich, she got angry and said that we'll never be together and not to contact her
It seems its a thing then that when things are "going too well" she gets triggered (ikr, being "too good" can actually be a problem). I know you love her dearly but such intense feelings can be scary.
Her saying not to contact her is a very clear "not right now" kind of thing. Maybe she will contact you, maybe not.
Best be open and ready for if/when it happens. You can write back here and get advice as you go, you don't have to go it alone. We share our experience with each other, so don't be afraid to comment on someone else's threads as well, I learned a lot doing that when I first came here after my bpdex left me all of a sudden.
did you notice any change on the days prior to her "nightmare/vision from god"? was there some sort of "big thing" (vacation, engagement, family issues, moving in, work promotion/relocation, whatever) around that time?
