Hello everybody. I have lived through a lot of good but also a lot of bad times in my life. I am tough as nails and do not take
PLEASE READ from anybody. I do not get into fights, I do not start brawls, but I sure as hell leave behind and walk away from undesirable situations, point blank.
So after a really long time (for me - 2 years) of being single and getting rejected from way too many women (and with every rejection I felt more and more unwanted, unattractive and unconfident), I met her. Confused sex for love, thought we have the common goals (since we're both old now), I knocked her up and we got married.
Already during her pregnancy her behavior was unacceptable and intolerable. Constant harassing, insulting, *hittesting and jealousy without boundaries. I struggled a lot but tried to make up for it with even more sex.
She gave birth to a beautiful, handsome, incredible baby boy, our son. He is really a dream come true, friendly, good spirited, uncomplaining, uncomplicated (for a baby). His first birthday is approaching soon, or our divorce... I can not stand this 5h1t anymore. My "not taking any crap from anyone" attitude is what attracted her in the first place, so she spent the last year trying to destroy me, so that she can wallow in the self pity of having a weak man (as I have gotten to learn, the same thing her mother did and is still doing to her father).
To never ever see her again would be the most wonderful gift I could think of right now. But I dont want to lose my son... Since we are both strangers in a 3rd country, if we divorce, she gets sent home immediately. 100% goes my little boy with her.
Even in the best case, that I would get custody, (I can not imagine how I would prove her insanity), I would be in fear all the time of her kidnapping our boy, or violently taking revenge on me when I am off my guard (I asked around about her past, she is also prone to revenge violence).
Yeah, I felt, and still feel sorry for her, it is not her fault the she got caught up in the neverending chain of horrible parenting that gets passed on from one generation to another. But even if I dont give up and endure this nonsense, how would that affect our son?
We wanted a big family together, and I also have the feeling, that if this relationship also fails, the biological clock ran out, no time left.