Home page of BPDFamily.com, online relationship supportMember registration here
May 27, 2020, 09:27:06 AM *
Welcome, Guest. Please login or register.

Login with username, password and session length
Board Admins: FaithHopeLove, Harri, Once Removed
Senior Ambassadors: Cat Familiar, I Am Redeemed, Mutt, Turkish
Ambassadors: Enabler, Forgiveness, formflier, GaGrl,  khibomsis , Longterm, Ozzie101, pursuingJoy, Swimmy55, zachira
  Help!   Groups   Please Donate Login to Post New?--Click here to register  
bing
Beware of Junk Psychology... Just because it's on the Internet doesn't mean it's true. Not all blogs and online "life coaches" are reliable, accurate, or healthy for you. Remember, there is no oversight, no competency testing, no registration, and no accountability for many sites - it is up to you to qualify the resource. Learn how to navigate this complicated arena...
115
Pages: [1]   Go Down
  Print  
Author Topic: 3 weeks NC Today --- Everyday is a battle  (Read 113 times)
Pytagoras
***
Offline Offline

Gender: Male
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Romantic partner
Posts: 168



« on: October 06, 2019, 05:37:01 AM »

I manage to get to 3 Weeks NC today.

In the last two days, i've manage to concentrate more in me and my projects. I'm also in the gym, for 3 weeks now. I lost a lot of weight and now i'm much better. I was a fit guy in the beggining of our relationship, and i've lost much of it. In the last year, i recovered some of my shape, but i've lost it all this summer.

I spend much time alone. I work, clean the house, read, work on my website, see series, movies, documentaries. Every day i do the same. I speak to friends, but not much. I feel i need to isolate my self a little bit in this phase.

A few days ago, a friend of ours came and tell me that my ex called him 5 am, to ask for a lift to her and her bf. I became nervous and ask him not to tell me anything from her anymore.

In the gym i bumped with her former best female friend. In the supermarket i bumped with a friend couple of ours.

And yesterday her mother called. It's strange that she called me. I didn't answered the phone, and i am in doubt if i sent her a text msg. Maybe it's rude if i dont respond. She never done anything wrong to me. What do you think?

If she called, it's because something's wrong. Or, my ex asked her to, to see how am i doing. I am afraid of being nervous again. Every new information i have of her makes me nervous. Anxiety !!

Another friend of mine said that before, she had "in a relation with XXXX" and now she just have "in a relationship".

Idk.

I think that she is so unstable that her honeymoon / idealize period are very short.

Of course i miss a part of her, a part of our relationship. Every night i dream with her. Every morning she is the first tought i have. Every day is a battle. I am better now, but i know i am still fragile, and any shake from abroad can affect me.

My chest still feels heavy. The way i feel my lungs and my heart tells my that i am still grieving. Sometimes I sigh a lot.

I am just trying to protect my self, going low profile, just doing my day-to-day stuff and let time passes, to get stronger every day...
« Last Edit: October 06, 2019, 05:43:52 AM by Pytagoras » Logged
gizmocasci
**
Offline Offline

What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
Posts: 72


« Reply #1 on: October 06, 2019, 06:31:57 AM »


If she called, it's because something's wrong. Or, my ex asked her to, to see how am i doing. I am afraid of being nervous again. Every new information i have of her makes me nervous. Anxiety !!


congrats on making it 3 weeks, its no easy feat. i'm at 8 and i still find myself waking up to thoughts of her.

as for your above comment, i know the feeling. everytime i hear her name, or some off-handed comment, anxiety gets triggered. i do some door-dashing on the side, and once in a while drive through her home town, my anxiety gets triggered there as well. being human is a funny thing ain't it?

hang in there and keep keeping yourself busy. concentrate on the things that bring you get great joy. write, get a good nights sleep, eat healthy, stay away from anything excessive that is bad for you. honor any and all feelings that you have. it's ok to miss them, it's ok to hate them, it's ok to love them, it's ok to still think about them. let the feelings come up, let the feelings move on.

best of luck

r

Logged
Can You Help Us Stay on the Air in 2020?

Pages: [1]   Go Up
  Print  
 
Jump to:  

Our 2020 Financial Sponsors
We are all appreciative of the members who provide the funding to keep BPDFamily on the air.
40days_in_desert
Ahquei3s
alphabeta
ArtistGuy70
AskingWhy
At Bay
Avanzando
Beneck
bigredneck
Bittlecat
Boll Weevil
calmboom
Cat Familiar
Chosen
Dnmtnbkr
drained1996
Eggshellsbroken
FaithHopeLove
Forgiveness
GaGrl
ggGreg
Gift to Myself
gotbushels
Harri
Imatter33
Jazzy48
jdc
jones54
Katrinalove
LLgreen
Longterm
loyalwife
lucidone
Manifest32f
MariannaR
Methuen
mgirl
Minttea
Mommydoc
Mutt
narcdaughter2
NorseWoman
Notgoneyet
oceanheart
oftentimes
Omega1
Only Human
PeacefulMom
pest947
podsnapG
ProudDad12
pursuingJoy
Radcliff
Raul
Recycle
Resiliant
Rev
Rosheger
SamwizeGamgee
Sandalwood
SCM
SerendipityChild
SES
Skip
StillStuck
Swimmy55
Teno
truthbeknown
Ventak
vinnie77
wavewatcher
wendydarling
whirlpoollife
Wicker Man
WindofChange
worn_out
WTL
zaqsert

Powered by MySQL Powered by PHP Powered by SMF 1.1.21 | SMF © 2006-2020, Simple Machines Valid XHTML 1.0! Valid CSS!