my own dependency

[incestor]

i was a victim of emotional incest abuse and neglect. I am 52 years old and have brought my disease of dependency into our marriage which is now nearly destroyed. My toxic ( arrogant, needy, entitled, disloyal, disrespectful, resentful,decietful dependent and emotional incestful) behaviour has  resulted in our separation and  now impending divorce. 1. I am currently insane= in a loop of distress where I dont know the truth . This overlies my primary need to have other people (men , especially my husband) tell me what is right. its acute on chronic dependency. We cannot make constructive suggestions of how to heal our marriage whilst i remain dependent. yet my abuse of my husband and son must be dealt with asap. I have been to 8 therapists over 12 years. I "seduce" the men into fulfilling my delusion of being loveable (lie , withhold truth) and i disrespect and resist the women or conflagrate with their own agendas that my husband is to blame. I dont know what to do. please help.

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[Harri]

Hi incestor.  I am so sorry to hear of your struggles in your relationship.  It is great that you are seeking support and are willing to work on your recovery.

Our community is here to serve those who are in relationships with a person(s) who has a personality disorder.  I have listed eligibility requirements for posting on this site below. 

I hope you can find the support you are looking for from on of the following resources:   https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html

I wish you the very best of luck.

Harri

General Members: The requirements of membership are five-fold;
1. that you have a current or past relationship with an individual exhibiting Borderline Personality Disorder traits or traits of another personality disorder,
2. that you are serious about improving your current lifestyle and emotional well-being,
3. that you are willing to support others in the improvement of their lifestyle and emotional well being,
4. that you will comply with the community rules and respect the board moderators,
5. that you are 18 years of age or older.

[incestor]

o, so its not suitable i post here as the problem one? could u direct me to somewhere suitable? thank you

[Harri]

I provided a link to available resources above.

Here is the link:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html

Again, I wish you well.

Harri