Why do I do this to myself? Am I obsessive etc?

[csquare319]

Mod Note:  Part 1 of this thread is here:  https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=341393.0

All of you here, you are like a family. Believe me, we are stronger than we think. It is strong to feel these emotions, to feel the pain. It WILL make you a stronger person.
You will love yourself again, I know that, it comes from experience.

Big love!

Thank you for sharing and for your loving words, they truly mean alot for someone like me how is in the same trench as you, dear brother. Please take care of yourself.

[Rev]

I have to change my place of residence. It`s sad, but this may be only way to get her out of my life.

I have kept my new address a secret from my ex. She showed up a my place of work unannounced.  I have a cease and desist in place now.

Last I heard, she was really struggling with her mental health now. Sad on one level - relieved on another. I, like you, didn't want to end up in the hospital or worse.

Rev