Hello back,
issamomBe kind to yourself in knowing that change does not happen overnight. You recognize the problems and you are making moves towards positive change. I'm not sure if I have read the book you bought but I have read lots on the subject of BPD...some more helpful than others. Not sure about where you live, but I found my local library was a great source for books like that. Mind you, with this current situation we find ourselves in
, libraries are not as accessible as they were.
Good that you are now seeing the need to look after yourself.
It is thought-provoking that phrase used so much on this forum..."get the oxygen mask on yourself first...then you are able to reach out to help others." It takes work to do this. We are Moms who are programmed to be caregivers...but we also need to be cared for.
This is going to be a long, hard journey you will share with your daughter. She is either unable or unwilling to do things differently. Change will have to start with you. Baby steps...learning how to set boundaries...helpful to both of you.
I urge you to continue on with your research...the books you find...all that is available on this website. I urge you, too, to keep posting...share what works...what doesn't work...and reach out to help others.
I so hope this renewed relationship you have with your ex-husband continues to grow and that it will bring both of you much happiness...so important that your daughter's needs don't overshadow yours.
May the sun be shining in your day, issamom.
Huat