I am SO glad to hear about your success! You know what, I'm in the early phases of no contact. It is really hard and I cry all the time...but one thing is true, even though I am devastated the stress drama that used to be in my life is no longer there. So while I have a lot of anxiety and traumatic memories about what happened (like endless rage), another part of me is relieved not to have the constant new stress.
I am hoping it gets better for me too.
I know it is hard but if you know in your hear that the rs has to end, stay strong! Early Days were the hardest for me too! I slipped once and accepted his friend request but while doing so i had a very bad feeling in my stomache. He didnt write anything immediately and before night was over I decided to block him.
It is hard. I also cried and wondered if I did the right thing. It felt like I abandonded someone who needed me, no matter he was mistreating me.
It gets easier! Now I realise from time to time I havent thought of him for a while at all and it is a great feeling not having to deal with his mess.
I also felt rage in early days because I felt discreadited and blamed even though I did nothing but try to help him for years. With time it gets easier not to have closure, in a way you find closure within yourself, by getting yourself back to normal state. My stress levels are down since and I no longer feel guilty.
It is possible and let time do its work. You will heal!