Separated 24 hours ago

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

I am so sad. He is the only person in my longlife who loved me. And I had to leave to save myself. Absolutely devastated. Sad for him, sad for me.
Feeling a bit desperate

[Showpony]

I am so sad. He is the only person in my longlife who loved me. And I had to leave to save myself. Absolutely devastated. Sad for him, sad for me.
Feeling a bit desperate

[csquare319]

Brace yourself, Showpony, for the 3-4 months of rough road ahead. But it will eventually get better. 

[Lucky Jim]

Hey Showpony, I'm sorry to hear what you're going through.  Reaching a turning point, where you have to leave to save yourself, is a healthy sign: It's your first step towards recovery.  What makes you think that your xSO suffers from BPD?  Fill us in when you can.

LuckyJim