Hi there, is it possible to mute her channel in your classes so that you don't have to see her/listen to her? Asking as somehow who would NEVER have found the strength to mentally detach if I hadn't been forced to physically detach from my ex completely and without exception.
Distance is almost impossible to garner as long as you hear and see her every single day.
Hey Sappho,
Unfortunately that’s not possible to do. However, I don’t feel hurt when I hear her talking because I know she isn’t the person I fell in love with.
It’s just that I miss that version of her that I fell in love with and it’s really messing with my mind that I fell in love with an illusion that doesn’t exist. I feel like I’ll never find love again nor find someone as “complete” as that version was.
Even if she tries to come back now, all bridges have been burned down. She smeared me hard to everyone she knows, her friends and family hate me (no idea what she told them for them to turn on me after they used to praise me so much) and my friends and family hate her for what she did to me. Not only that, but after I’ve became well informed about BPD I know that if she comes back it wouldn’t be because she loves me but because I was the only one willing to endure her abuse, love her unconditionally, and not do as much as even look at any other girl when we were outside.
I really want to recover because I’m really tired of all this. I did nothing but love her with all her my heart and all she did was continuously step on it.