Overwhelmed :(

[lillylou2]

I am unsure if my relationship is good and safe enough to stay. I have BPD and He judges me for it and he is abusive and I am totally shocked as I thought me and him were soul mates but clearly he wants not only my body but to use me.
It's my first post also So I want to introduce myself, I'm 21 and from the United Kingdom.
I have a dog called Teddy who I love.
Hope to see you around

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[lillylou2]

I didn't want me and him to end but he keeps abusing my personal self. I think scared what attack I would get next and I couldn't live like that anymore.

My actions with my BPD weren't perfect but I would never EVER hurt anyone especially not him as I loved and cared for him as my boyfriend and best friend but I didn't know why he enjoyed hurting me

[poppy2]

Hallo Ellie,

I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. Would you like to be a bit more specific about what exactly is happening?

Best wishes
poppy

[lillylou2]

he hurts me. and scares me it's horrible i can't keep pretending to be happy with mine and his relationship

[poppy2]

Have you thought about taking a break in order to let things settle down, and figure out if you want to stay or not?

[lillylou2]

he is so abusive i cant leave he's saying things