I am so sorry you have to go through this.
If it is of any comfort, all of us ( bpd or not) go through this pain at some point in life.
Heartbreak to me is one of the worst ones ( going through it myself too atm) so consider yourself a hero just getting through the day.
Don't expect too much of yourself apart from just making it through the day, getting comfortable clothes on. Healthy food in.
Allow every feeling you have, love, hate, yearning, devastation, obsession.. there are no wrong feelings.
Although it seems impossible to get through this right now, fact of nature is you will... take your pain and carry it with pride because it is proof of how much you are a human being that is capable of caring.
