Problems after moving in

[triceps]

I feel pretty lost right now. My girlfriend of 8 months left my place this morning after a fight to stay with a friend.
She's foreign and had a pretty rough upbringing. She also is starting her master's program in psychology and is self aware of her BPD. Her lease ended and wanted to go back to her home country for a few months and moved in with me 3 weeks ago before she goes back in another month. We talk alot about long term future plans and she knows she has long term commitment fears that she has to face.

She got triggered a few days ago when we were teasing eachother and I sarcastically said to get out of my house, and 2 nights ago she was crying a lot about that and thinking I don't have any empathy for her. She has no family here and it really triggered her when her father said the same to her when she was a teen. We seemed to reconcile. This morning I needed to fart and did quietly in the side of the room when she was in bed talking to me. It smelled bad and she got real disgusted, I couldn't keep a straight face and started laughing. She then started throwing the remote at me and even through the bedside lamp on the floor. She was yelling and blaming me for her rage episode.

I had know idea what to do or say so I left to the living room to think about things after cleaning the broken lamp mess. She packed a few things in her backpack and left without a word. I texted her trying to empathize and let her know it's ok if she needs space to which she told me to see a therapist. I said I'll do what I can to make things work. She replied pretty upset saying I never change until she gets really mad, and that I'm disgusting, that I made her a version of herself she doesn't like, and to go 'f' myself. I didn't reply right away but she sent another message of a relationship quote and for me to grow up. I messaged back saying that I can see how this is really effecting her and I don't like how she feels she's a bad version of herself and that I'll be here for her.

Granted I do have my own immature issues as I like to keep things playful, but there are times where I am unaware that I cross the line. We've had issues before and she's dumped me once only to want to try again a few days later. I really want to do all I can to be there for her and have the best future together. I'm unsure of the best way to reconcile with her at this point.

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[bugwaterguy]

Your girlfriend being self-aware of her BPD and you being early in the relationship can help.

If you choose to continue this relationship, things will be difficult.  Are you up for that? 
Reading https://bpdfamily.com/content/what-does-it-take-be-relationship can give you things to think about.

How much have you educated yourself on BPD?  Have you read any books?

Are you in therapy to prepare yourself for what you might be dealing with?

[triceps]

Your girlfriend being self-aware of her BPD and you being early in the relationship can help.

If you choose to continue this relationship, things will be difficult.  Are you up for that? 
Reading https://bpdfamily.com/content/what-does-it-take-be-relationship can give you things to think about.

How much have you educated yourself on BPD?  Have you read any books?

Are you in therapy to prepare yourself for what you might be dealing with?

I know this is something I can handle as I have a very grounded emotional center. I also did not know it at the time but my younger sister has BPD and I have experienced those episodes before. I'm trying to educate myself a lot more now. I only have more education in attachment styles and Narcissism. I did 2 therapy sessions in November last year, mainly for myself though, as I have high functioning autistic traits.

[triceps]

Today she asked to come by and pick up some clothes.
She did and I asked if she needed help with anything, she didn't want help and said she needed more time to think about things, then left.

I guess I should give her the space she wants for now