It's over again

[Stickycoinz]

Foolishly, I went back again and this time it's so much worse and I feel like I'm in a hole with no one to blame but myself.  It's not like I didnt know this would happen.  But here I am, 4 months later with nothing. No money, no car, no where to go. No way to get there. No friends to turn to, no family to ask for help.  I feel like I'm backed into a corner and no way out.  I feel stupid for even posting here but I need the support and the resources. I know that I'm finally over this insanity.  I cant do this again. But I need a job and a safe place to be and transportation.  I'm completely at my most vulnerable and I dont want to give up. Where would I do that anyway?

[Biggus]

Foolishly, I went back again and this time it's so much worse and I feel like I'm in a hole with no one to blame but myself.  It's not like I didnt know this would happen.  But here I am, 4 months later with nothing. No money, no car, no where to go. No way to get there. No friends to turn to, no family to ask for help.  I feel like I'm backed into a corner and no way out.  I feel stupid for even posting here but I need the support and the resources. I know that I'm finally over this insanity.  I cant do this again. But I need a job and a safe place to be and transportation.  I'm completely at my most vulnerable and I dont want to give up. Where would I do that anyway?

Hi Sticky!  Yeah life can be hard, but I like your fighting spirit.

Last year I too got back with my ex from the past, but the recent break up didn't feel that bad this time, as I had other things to worry about. Every new year for the past three years I've said "next one can't be as bad as this one was" but little did I know. It's just been a three year battle to keep my head above, but this year I just know I'm getting myself out from the cold water.

I figured that, when you have nothing to loose it's a great place to start from. When you're cornered the only way is up.

[Cant breathe]

So sorry.

For me, each breakup and discard was exponentially worse, the pain lasting longer each time.

No contact and therapy have proven to be the key to me getting over this merry-go-round.

[SinisterComplex]

Foolishly, I went back again and this time it's so much worse and I feel like I'm in a hole with no one to blame but myself.  It's not like I didnt know this would happen.  But here I am, 4 months later with nothing. No money, no car, no where to go. No way to get there. No friends to turn to, no family to ask for help.  I feel like I'm backed into a corner and no way out.  I feel stupid for even posting here but I need the support and the resources. I know that I'm finally over this insanity.  I cant do this again. But I need a job and a safe place to be and transportation.  I'm completely at my most vulnerable and I dont want to give up. Where would I do that anyway?

Hey Sticky...first  welcome. How you feel matters. However, one thing I will ask of you...do not ever feel stupid for posting here. Posting here takes balls or fortitude or however you want to phrase it. Showing your vulnerability makes you stronger. While some may be more self-sufficient, stronger, etc than others...the strong and self-sufficient still need help from time to time as well. Always remember that kindness is a strength and never a weakness as well.

This resource here is a family. We got you. Now I will give you a heads up...giving up is never an option with me. No, you strap in and block out the noise and you work the problem. Life is far too valuable a commodity to just give up.

Now I can be gruff and tough, but always understand I am here to help you and that I do get it as well as the rest of my team here and just like the other members here like you.

You are going to be ok and you are going to get through this. It does take time, but during that time please take care of YOU and be kind to YOU. YOU matter. Additionally, take some time to reflect. There are lessons to be learned. Life is a journey and it is all about continuing to improve and do better, but you have to want to do better and you have to dedicate yourself to finding the best version of YOU.

Anyway enough of my sermon. Please continue to post. Vent. Ask questions. Engage with the other members. You showed up here and we will be a part of helping you get your heard screwed on straight again because now you are Fam. 

Cheers and best wishes!

-SC-