I’ve been talking to a psychologist to help with understanding what I experienced and she basically said there’s no point trying to understand, they are not rational like us. This got me reflecting on some strange and odd behaviours I either forgotten or ignored. I find it helps me with recovery and the whole “dodged a bullet” thing my close family and friends keep telling me. I’ve listed below some that come to mind. Hoping you guys have some to share as well.
- Laying in bed together watching a movie and out of nowhere she said “I think you have a brain tumour”
- The crazy eyes. It’s hard to explain, some folks here might know what I’m talking about, but basically glazed, intense bulging eyes. She did this when she was asking me about marriage and if I would ever get remarried.
- She wanted to
PLEASE READ me in the car park after a dinner date. She thought I was looking at some other female in the restaurant and she was very jealous so thought having sex in a busy carpark was a great idea.
- Breaking up because I didn’t cook dinner one night. She said it was abuse and like I had cheated on her and smeared me as the worst person alive to her friends.
- The day she drove to my place to collect her things a few days after our breakup she was white as a ghost, looked like death, moving really slow, and was completely out of it. I think this might’ve been disassociation (I don’t know enough about it though) but my god I’ve never seen anything like it.
- Jealous of my mother cooking me Lasagne.
More will come to mind but please share your examples. I’ve really struggled with my mental health since the break up and thought I was going insane and had issues. I’m not perfect but goddam I’m not insane.