our loved ones tend to express themselves strongly.
they can say the most loving things, and the most hateful things.
there is a fickle, dreamer like nature to BPD. they tend to get caught up in the moment, and over emote. make sweeping, loving professions, talk passionately about the future, etc. one of the hardest things about being in a relationship with someone with bpd is staying grounded when it comes to that.
if he puts the kabosh on things like talking about kids, follow his lead. dont push.
Then he came into the room while I was upset and tried to lay down and when I tried to bring it up very very lightly because now I’m always walking on eggshells or grenades, and told him sometimes I just need some reassurance he just got mad and turned over. Is this normal? I am so sad and upset and I feel so alone and lonely sleeping next to someone that I am with. I feel like he’s pushing me to break up with him, like he wants it but doesn’t want to do it.
thick skin is probably the number one requirement when it comes to loving someone with bpd.
our loved ones, in many cases, dont have the skills to listen, to validate, to process some of our hurts. they may become defensive, they may take it as an attack, they may feel pressured, and when that happens, they tend to push back. which doesnt help us feel any better, but understand that this is a limitation your partner may have, that is more about him than you. think of it this way: we all have limitations.
its a balance; the solution is not to simply bottle up your feelings, your needs, or never voice your hurts. its more about finding ways that are compatible with both of your needs and limitations, and its also about finding ways of coping (feedback and support here can help a lot) with your feelings, and your partners limitations.
does that make sense?