When she quotes "I will try to love again", is she trying to recycle with you? Are you at a place where you would be willing to recycle? Sounds like she is married now, yes?
Perhaps she is unhappy in present marriage and this is some drunken sadness directed towards someone she felt she could trust, what do you think?
Oh hell shes only trying to recycle me enough to keep me dangling on her hook she has a nibble then is gone again.
In regards to me being willing to recycle? Not. A. F*cking. Chance.
10/12/15 years ago I would have jumped at the chance - even 18 months ago or so I'd consider it. But since reading up on BPDs and having all my crazy feelings validated means I'm now in a much better place to see her for what she is. She had her chance years ago and then some. In fact she had about 10 chances. Nope not now. She chose any other available man and eventually married one and had his kid. Good luck with that. I'd consider having an affair, if only because I find her physically very sexy. But nowadays I find her personality repugnant, if only because she's so phony. Plus it's like trying to have an adult conversation with a child. It's all so hollow. Also, I don't really want to be the guy who ruins another guy's marriage.
In regards to him, she tells me he's a drunk and he doesn't adore her or treat her the way I used to. Which kind of makes me think that's why she stays with him - treat 'em mean, keep 'em keen. Kind of how they keep us dangling, I think he keeps her dangling. She tells me she's not sure she's safe with him - pretty certain that's just her painting him black. She used to do that towards me, telling people I was violent towards her. Funny, she can't remember saying those things now.
I kind of feel sorry for him.
I'm guessing any drinking problem will have only been exacerbated by being married to a BPD, but seeing as how (I thought) she was my one true love (yeah, I know but we've all been there) and he married her I kind of wish a certain degree of misery on him. But then again, a lot of you guys are in his position too. Who knows what goes on behind closed doors.
No, I just wanted to post to vent or validate my own feelings on how they simply simply simply do not live in the same reality we do. It's bizarre, truly truly bizarre.