Had a great session with my T yesterday. We talked a lot about what happened during the Idealizing phase. After one or two dates, and after each recycle I ould hear things like this... .
There isn't anything i don't like about you
I have a fear of abandonment
I hope we never grow apart
No one has ever taken me out like you do
Your the best lover i have ever had
You make the best food
You are a great dad
However when the devaluation kicked in severl months later, I would hear the following... .
I cant believe I fell for someone like you
There really is nothing I like about you
I hope your daughter ends up with someone like you
Blade u ruined a really good thing
The problem is you Blade
Your exwife is fine - keep in mind when I was white, she hated my ex... .
I hate you
After everything I have done for you
And the kicker of all kickers... .i am going out tonight to find a big penis tonight
What are some of the classics others have heard?
In bold.
I heard the same exact things.
"There isnt anything about you that i really like... ."
She told me that both times in devaluation.
Mind you... .
She came back to me in round 2.
That was one of those things that literally screamed out... .
Clearly there is something really f¥cking wrong here.
In idealization i heard... .(both rounds)
You are my rock in my storm... .
I love everything about you... .All your flaws, sarcasm, smile, laughter... .
I am so grateful you are back in my life... .
I thank God everyday that he placed my angel in my life... .
You are too much for me... .
You are so kind... .
I love how we can talk about anything... .
I love your voice... .
I love how caring you are... .
In devaluation... .(both rounds)
There isnt anything about you i really like... .(I feel like throwing up just writing that line)
My love for you was an illusion(round 1)... .
Your love for me was fake (round 2)... .
I hate the way you breath on the phone... .
I hate the way you stand... .
I hate the way you move your hands... .
You are too intense for me... .
You are too clingy... .
You must be gay... .(i stopped having sex with her due to devaluation)... .
You dont know how to drive, makes you less of a man... .(I was the one traveling to see her 4+ hours away)... .
It took you too long to get promoted at your job... .
You are too sensitive... .
I cant write anymore... .
It brings tears to my eyes remembering this.