Well after a rough Christmas day I think I don't have anymore tears to produce at least for a while... anyways... is this how it always is playing mind games all the time? I was blocked again from her on FB, i can almost guarantee this wont last long it didn't last time either.
Block her, delete her, assume a new identity, move to a different country... .whatever it takes to not get sucked into that endless black hole. Just my humble opinion
Last contact I had with my soon to be exBPDh was Dec 9th. He was "presumably", on his way here from 3 states away, had several jobs lined up ect ect. He was coming to make things right, do what he said he was going to do, he loved me, didn't want to loose me, I was the one for him blah blah blah.
I pretty much told him, to drop dead.
I wished for a long time that I had copied/forwarded to myself the love letters I found that he had written his ex, just for insurance for the divorce. So I thought I'd try logging into his email... .Jackpot! Genius never changed his password. Found the letter I was looking for and soo much more. The best one is an email sent Dec 23 to the same ex. Saying how sorry he was, he was weak, he hoped she was happy, how he would have to live the rest of his life regretting not being with her.