If you could wake up tomorrow...

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I went to a new therapist last night and at the end of the session she asked me, if I could wake up tomorrow and all my anxiety/PTSD/grief etc was finished and I could be healed what would that look like?  It was an interesting questions and along the lines of visualising a healthy future.

This is what I came up with:

I would have energy

I would be relaxed and this knot in my stomach that I've had for 2 years would be gone

I would be inspired to be creative again

I would want to be social and not be so scared to be around other people

I would sleep peacefully

I would let anxiety-provoking things roll off my back because of an inner peace where everything is just okay

I would find passion again in doing those things I used to love doing such as art

I wouldn't jump at loud noises anymore

I would be trusting of other people and excited at the idea of dating and meeting new people

I'm sure I'll think of more but it was good to imagine that I might get to this place one day.

Anyone else?

[Pingo]

I went to a new therapist last night and at the end of the session she asked me, if I could wake up tomorrow and all my anxiety/PTSD/grief etc was finished and I could be healed what would that look like?  It was an interesting questions and along the lines of visualising a healthy future.

This is what I came up with:

I would have energy

I would be relaxed and this knot in my stomach that I've had for 2 years would be gone

I would be inspired to be creative again

I would want to be social and not be so scared to be around other people

I would sleep peacefully

I would let anxiety-provoking things roll off my back because of an inner peace where everything is just okay

I would find passion again in doing those things I used to love doing such as art

I wouldn't jump at loud noises anymore

I would be trusting of other people and excited at the idea of dating and meeting new people

I'm sure I'll think of more but it was good to imagine that I might get to this place one day.

Anyone else?

[Springle]

What a dream to have all those things you mentioned.

In some ways I wish I would just wake up and find that meeting my non-ex and especially her never happened and it was all a terrible nightmare.

[Loveofhislife]

Springle--I've got to say ditto--I would have listened to all those bells and whistles and paid attention to the red flags. I would have cancelled that first meeting on July 13, 2013 when I called to say I was running late (already he demonstrated neediness over the phone: "You're not canceling, are you?" I said to myself--"Oh no, another needy one." Later I would write, WOW! after we had met and hit it off. Immediately after,  he started calling and calling and calling and texting and texting: even when he knew I was in a conference on the other side of the country. SO... .I would wake up on July 14, 2013 and say, "I DON'T NEED OR WANT ANOTHER NEEDY MAN IN MY LIFE; I DON'T NEED HIS ATTENTION; I AM ENOUGH!

[fred6]

Springle--I've got to say ditto--I would have listened to all those bells and whistles and paid attention to the red flags. I would have cancelled that first meeting on July 13, 2013 when I called to say I was running late (already he demonstrated neediness over the phone: "You're not canceling, are you?" I said to myself--"Oh no, another needy one." Later I would write, WOW! after we had met and hit it off. Immediately after,  he started calling and calling and calling and texting and texting: even when he knew I was in a conference on the other side of the country. SO... .I would wake up on July 14, 2013 and say, "I DON'T NEED OR WANT ANOTHER NEEDY MAN IN MY LIFE; I DON'T NEED HIS ATTENTION; I AM ENOUGH!

If I could wake up tomorrow and see my exBPD looking at me, asking me if I was OK. Then explaining that she had picked some mushrooms and put them on my pizza. Then I realize that my exBPD didn't have BPD and the past 3 months was just a bad trip or something.  

But oh well, I got to face reality on another lonely Friday night. I'll go smoke crack now, hahaha. Just kidding. But I do have a bottle of Makers Mark staring me down. At least it won't split me black, not until I pass out, . What were we talking about again? Waking up tomorrow AFTERNOON with a hangover, bwahahaha. I'm just a laugh riot today. But still crying on the inside

[Loveofhislife]

 Fred6: I like how you roll--laughter is medicine for the soul!

[fred6]

Fred6: I like how you roll--laughter is medicine for the soul!

Like how I roll? The only rolling I'll be doing is rolling around on the kitchen floor when I go to bed tonight passed out, . And that laughing will turn to glorious and drunken sobbing once I get all lit up on bourbon. Such a fabulous sight, a drunken 42 year old MAN(?) slobbering about his ex girlfriend, bwahahaha

[Loveofhislife]

Ok, so if you could wake up tomorrow... .the hangover will initially refer the pain to your head and maybe to your digestive system, so it will be difficult to focus on pwBPDx. That's the good news. Bad news? The resulting low blood sugar and flushing out of your magnesium and b vitamins isn't going to help the depression. I prescribe a good dose of endorphins, cortisol, vitamin d, and detoxification. Get out doors; work up a sweat in the sunshine; take double doses of B's and magnesium. And as Alice in Wonderland said, "I give myself such good advice and yet I never take it." Story of my life.

[willtimeheal]

Kid I could wake up tomorrow healed it would look like... .

1) realizing that there is no "hope" for us getting it right. Which would mean that I accept that she is ill and never going to get better (I stop clinging to the hope that maybe this time it will be different), I stop thinking about her, and I smile and actually mean it.

[fred6]

Ok, so if you could wake up tomorrow... .the hangover will initially refer the pain to your head and maybe to your digestive system, so it will be difficult to focus on pwBPDx. That's the good news. Bad news? The resulting low blood sugar and flushing out of your magnesium and b vitamins isn't going to help the depression. I prescribe a good dose of endorphins, cortisol, vitamin d, and detoxification. Get out doors; work up a sweat in the sunshine; take double doses of B's and magnesium. And as Alice in Wonderland said, "I give myself such good advice and yet I never take it." Story of my life.

Well, hopefully I'll get back to hitting the weights and cardio Monday morning. Been to stressed out since the beginning of July to even focus on it. The good news is that I've lost so much weight that I can almost see my abs again since I was bulking phase before all this happened. The bad news is that my muscles have shrunk down to normal again. So I guess that I'll try to get back to all ripped up over the next couple months. But that has to wait until my liver gets all ripped up tonight, bwahahaha... .