Did my music prompt her to end it?

[Arminius]

Slightly odd, I know, but on the night she suddenly ended our 7 yrs, and from that moment split me black, I played her this for the first time... .One of my old favourites we had just not shared yet... .

www.youtu.be/4QRvgQGWhKg

Stain'd . Outside.

And you

Can bring me to my knees

Again

All the times

That I could beg you please

In vain

All the times

That I felt insecure

For you

And I leave

My burdens at the door

But I'm on the outside

I'm looking in

I can see through you

See your true colors

'Cause inside you're ugly

You're ugly like me

I can see through you

See to the real you

All the times

That I felt like this won't end

It's for you

And I taste

What I could never have

It was from you

All the times

That I've cried

My intentions

Full of pride

But I waste

More time than anyone

But I'm on the outside

And I'm looking in

I can see through you

See your true colors

'Cause inside you're ugly

You're ugly like me

I can see through you

See to the real you

All the times

That I've cried

All this wasted

It's all inside

And I feel

All this pain

Stuffed it down

It's back again

And I lie

Here in bed

All alone

I can't mend

But I feel

Tomorrow will be OK

But I'm on the outside

And I'm looking in

I can see through you

See your true colors

'Cause inside you're ugly

You're ugly like me

I can see through you

See to the real you


Just listened to this today, for the first time since that nigh time year ago, and the significance kinda smacked me in the head!

[ReluctantSurvivor]

I doubt it.  When talking with my therapist about my own relationship end he told me, "don't put too much weight into the events of this t

relationship."  He added that a BPD individual would have found any reason to flee, it is just how they operate.  Trying to rationalize irrational behavior will just drive us mad. 

[Arminius]

I was smiling when I wrote the post. I'm totally over the hell she put me through, and in no small part due to this site. Does make me smile, wryly, when I read the lyrics.

Frankly, I don't  care why anymore. My life has moved on. I live, laugh and love better, I'm materially better off, I drink less and look better, I've lost weight and I still have all the good parts of my life apart from the fake good of her.

She still has her... .And that's punishment enough.