This has been the worst two weeks of my life.
First, my exBPD "left" the relationship after I caught him in a series of lies. I've been trying to de-personalize the behavior, but it still hurts.
Second, my mother had two biopsies completed to check for cancer.
Third, my cousin passed away unexpectedly two days ago.
Fourth, yesterday I got into a car accident and now am in a lot of pain with my neck
I swear I could write a movie script. It's hard to be dealing with all of this at once, on top of applying to graduate programs and starting a new job in a few days.
I called my BPDex in a moment of panic and weakness after the accident and he did seem a bit concerned. I then texted him this morning after I left the hospital to say "I get into a serious car accident and you don't care how I am or what they said? Whatever." He responded with "What did they say?" I did not answer.
BPD or not its so inexcusable to me. I could find a stranger to show more compassion and care for what these past few weeks. I don't get it and I probably never will. I think it hurts even more since I'm going through so much ... .then again, it is making me quite angry.
Wow I am
so sorry you are going through this. Not only mental pain, but now physical pain. I hope things get better, I know they will.
