It's been 8 months. And a rollercoaster in hell. I love her. She attacked me with knife, and today is her first court date.
What exactly are you confused about? I realize that this is a very difficult situation for you, and perhaps for others involved, and that you love her, but to be attacked by a knife and to then have this court date must truly be difficult, and one that I'm completely empathetic towards (as a child, I saw my mother thrown through a glass shower by my sociopathic, insane stepfather, which really damaged my mind; seeing my mother in pain, bleeding, bruises all over her body, etc., left a long-lasting impression, and so violence of this kind is something I'm hyper-sensitive to, regardless if it is family, friendships, whatever it may be).
Anyway, please know that being on this site, on these boards, can really help you talk out your frustrations, help you learn more and cope with your anxieties, worries, confusion, and everything in-between!
We're here for you!
How exactly are you confused? Are you confused about whether you should stay with her or leave her? Or... .?