Hi LoveMeRnor-
How could she have just forgot me soo very quickly when yesterday I was the one? Is there anything that I can do to at least have a talk? I'm afraid time is passing and later it will be too late by the time she's ready to acknowledge that we had something good. How do I get her back in my life? Is she gone for good?
I know it over but dang that's messed up.
I was fine for the first 6 months now I'm a wreck. Why did it get harder for me after the fact?
I've been in exactly that place, and it hurts, unrequited love hurts, I understand. Sometimes we love someone who doesn't love us back, and vice versa, a part of life, not pleasant, but most consider taking the risk better than being alone. And good for you for taking the risk to begin with, and creating some joy with her while you did.
And now, it doesn't sound like she wants to be with you, so you have a decision to make. You can't get her back if she doesn't want to be with you, and you've tried, and seems the message is pretty clear. So you can stay in that pain, or you can let go of the hope that she'll change her mind and move on. A little difficult when you work together, I worked with my ex after we broke up, and although I thought I was handling it pretty well, a massive weight was lifted from my shoulders the day she got fired, scared me away from office romances forever.
But anyway, if you decide to live your life to the fullest, as you mention, and fill it up with people and activities you enjoy, you will not only shift your focus away from her, you will get mighty attractive, maybe to her, probably to women in general, and who knows what will happen. She may suddenly show a renewed interest in you then too, women are like that, and then you can make a decision from that place, a grounded, centered place where you have all of your power and are in control of your outcome, a much better place to be.
So there it is, a choice to be made, is it time to make one?