Welcome Keepcaring: I'm tired. I love her, but can't trust her. Legally, according to my lawyer, her current request to maintain the home for herself is ridiculous. Unfortunately, my wife could get what she demanded if our marriage were to survive another 6-12 months.
I'm sorry about what's happening with your wife, but I think you know what you need to do. She likely consulted another lawyer and could have learned that she needed to stay in the marriage for another 6-12 months, to get what she wants.
You can't count on anything changing on her part. I'm assuming there aren't children, so I'll ask if you can see yourself having children with her. Would you want someone like her as your mother? Can you see yourself growing old with her, just as she is?
I gave her everything that she wanted
Sadly, that won't make her behave any better, only lead you to bankruptcy.
She left our first marriage after 14 months. I felt tremendously guilty for abandoning someone with illness and I missed her terribly.
If she left your first marriage, how do you feel you abandoned her?
I don't want to leave her, but everyone - including my friends, family and Christian based marriage counselor say that I have to. I've lost 15-20 pounds and my heart hurts. I'm chasing a butterfly in a tornado.
Your friends, family, Christian counselor and your body are telling you to leave. Are you still seeing the counselor? It might be good to quickly explore this issue with your counselor. How can you refer to someone as the love of your life, if they are abusive to you. Don't you deserve better?