Thanks so much for the warm welcome, Tattered Heart!

I apologize for not being able to respond to you sooner! ☹️ The relationship is like two roommates, although we've been married for two years and together for 5. It wasn't like this when we first started dating(so cliche but true ) and something just switched one day and I honestly don't know if it was him or me at this point. I've become someone else-always questioning if he is being manipulative or if I am poss. crazy? It seems like he is one person on the outside, and I've gotten a view of a really dark and different person on the inside that he hides. But I question myself all the time because of his hot and cold behaviors. Maybe it's both of us... .? I'd love to hear from others who may have some insight to what they've experienced. I've always known what it is like to live with a personality disorder, but I have never 'lived with a personality disordered' person. It is very taxing and crazy-making.
Roxx