I've posted here a couple times, especially since 2024. My ex girlfriend I hadn't talked to initially reconnected with me after 4 years back in that October. At first she said she couldn't stop thinking about me, that she misses me stuff like that. I tried multiple times to see her, asked her if she wanted to get drinks or just see each other again because I missed her badly as well. She would agree, but then disappear for days/weeks or months. She always seemed to have a new boyfriend each time she messaged me. She has been dealing with a drug addiction and multiple arrests. The men she was with at the time had even messaged me on her phone and
PLEASE READ-talked me. Last summer she moved away and I finally felt like it was over. It strangely brought me a type of peace. Again though, she messaged me last September, saying she moved back. She disappeared again after sending me a photo of us years ago. Last week she messaged me again saying she just got out of jail. She changed her status to engaged with a man who is 15 years older than us, we're both in our early 20s, well I guess i'm mid 20s at 24. Nonetheless, she has him in her profile picture. Apparently they got arrested together. I don't understand why she would message me with her new boyfriend as her profile picture, but I answered last Thursday. She just messaged me again 15 minutes ago. I've let this go on for over a year now, I've been genuine and tried to reconnect and have an actual conversation with her many times. I really do miss her. I also know I have to put myself first, out of respect for myself I don't think I can be with a girl who plays games with me and has been with 5+ men since she started talking to me. It hurts. I really did love her and I feel like by not answering I am finally ending this chapter. I know I shouldn't but I wonder how she will react, I won't lie part of me hopes it makes her want to talk to me more as I usually always answer. I think it's time I stop though, she keeps popping in and out of my life every few months but there is no substance to us. Can you guys please help me find the strength to do this? Anyone have any personal anecdotes from a similar situation. Part of why it's so hard is because I am pretty lonely. I've struggled with drinking throughout my early 20s and I don't really have friends anymore as a result. The ones I do have won't care for hearing this. I like I'm on an island here. When we dated I really thought she and I would be forever, I even tattooed her name like an idiot. It's just hard.
