Hi! I don’t know how to start… it’s my first time. My love is the one with BPD, he is also the father of my kid.
Lately it’s gotten so hard for me to just keep it all together, that’s why I’m here. We had a huge fight today. Now I’m on that faze of blaming myself for it. I said some things that could indicate that I want to leave him. I’m tired of trying to get him out of his room, in my head it’s all just getting worse. He is closing himself in his world, where me and my son don’t have access. He doesn’t do a therapy, but I do, because he was saying that it’s all my fault and if I get my
PLEASE READ together, if I stop to complain it will all be good.. well… At the start I knew it would be challenging, because I felt that a lot of my behavior comes from his ignorance and now during therapy I’m just starting to notice how much of a help I need.. how much in pain I actually am.. but until now I was sort of prioritizing his pain. I thought my therapy would maybe encourage him to start his… And here I am now writing on a forum.. I really care about him, I see his inner child being in so much pain, don’t want to be one more person just passing by, but lately I’ve started to doubt. Also I’m very pushy, when things get bad I want to ease them the fastest I can. Maybe I should just leave him with all of that? Leave him in his room, not trying to force smth every 2h. What is your experience? What does work? What is leaving things worse? He also breaks up w me every single time we argue, maybe I should just validate that break up?
