as anxious as you may feel right now, you also sound a great deal more centered.
the uncertainty is killing me. I struggle not knowing what is going to happen and that causes anxiety. plus I feel fear of losing what I love most and I am sad
all of these, or any one of them alone, are hard.
yet youre able to articulate your feelings. youre able to sit with them without acting/or reacting. you have the presence of mind to be able to say "this is hard, and i need help with it".
all of that is emotional regulation in practice.
and what youre practicing right now, gives you real, lasting power, over when/if it happens in the future.
I have read that some characterises of BPD are, fear of abandonment, feelings of emptiness, difficulty with emotional regulating and reckless behaviours. why is it now that I am experiencing all of these symptoms?
these are things that everyone experiences sometimes, to lesser or greater degrees, especially in times of stress, uncertainty, heartache. people with bpd, or other personality disorders, or impulse disorders, just experience them more often, and to greater extremes. have you experienced them before?
