today will be a struggle

[mitchell16]

well woke up today with the crazy urge to talk with exBPDgf. Dont know why today. havent heard nothing from her in almost 2 weeks and been doing pretty good. I havent been obssessing about her. 4 month past the break up have started trying to date a little. Nothing serious, not looking for it. BUt today I woke up 0400 with her on my mind really bad. Im am strong in my conviction not to contact her and I know i will not get weak in that matter. But I wonder why today? my mind has been clear for the first time since all this crazyness has entered my mind.so i wonder what gives with today.

[Waifed]

Probably triggered by a subconscious dream.  Refocus by thinking about the pain and suffering she caused, not the good.

[mitchell16]

thats what I have to do. Ive came way to far to go back down that road again. But what is funny I woke up feeling this way, I havent seen or bumped into her 2 weeks which has been very ahrd since we both work right next to each other but fir her part she appeaers to have been avoiding me also. well today I cant turn a corner with out seeing her. This is very strange.

[Waifed]

It has to be very difficult seeing her on a semi regular basis.  Just tell yourself that she is the one losing out because she can no longer have you and all the good things that come with that.  Stay positive.

[houseofswans]

since we both work right next to each other

WOW - there's no way I could handle that in my current frame of mind 

[mitchell16]

yeah we share the parking lot but diffrent buildings about 20 feet apart. BUt I do have to give her some credit that last few weeks she as been avoiding me just like I have her and its worked out good. But when I woke up this morning she was on my mind very hard and then just as soon as I get to work i have to run into her. That was just beyond weird. and then wehn I got back from lunch there she was again. Usually when that starts happening I can stand by for a text message or phone call or something.