How do you stop missing their KIDS

[Undone123]

Ok I know why I am dysregulated and going backwards at the moment!

It's Christmas! I miss her son like mad... .

My ex had a 5 year old boy who was the mirror image of me at 5... .Identical starts in life. Same race, estranged father, intelligent, mischievous. I miss him like crazy. We grew very close I feel.

It was his birthday in August - and that was a tough time. But Christmas is doing it for me at the minute cos I miss him as well. How do I detach from a child who's a complete innocent? Radical acceptence isn't doing it for me on this one... .

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[Undone123]

Ok I know why I am dysregulated and going backwards at the moment!

It's Christmas! I miss her son like mad... .

My ex had a 5 year old boy who was the mirror image of me at 5... .Identical starts in life. Same race, estranged father, intelligent, mischievous. I miss him like crazy. We grew very close I feel.

It was his birthday in August - and that was a tough time. But Christmas is doing it for me at the minute cos I miss him as well. How do I detach from a child who's a complete innocent? Radical acceptence isn't doing it for me on this one... .

Last Christmas we all woke up together he opened his stocking etc. this year Will be hit!

[123Phoebe]

Aw, Undone123   Nothing about this is easy or pain-free.  Missing her son like mad is only natural and the first's are always hard; first monumental events after a significant loss.

Have you given yourself permission, time and space to grieve, I mean deep soul-level grieving?

Do you have a strong network of friends to lean on through the holidays?

Please keep reaching out for support; we are here for you

[Undone123]

Aw, Undone123   Nothing about this is easy or pain-free.  Missing her son like mad is only natural and the first's are always hard; first monumental events after a significant loss.

Have you given yourself permission, time and space to grieve, I mean deep soul-level grieving?

Do you have a strong network of friends to lean on through the holidays?

Please keep reaching out for support; we are here for you

My mother is close... .but my true friends are far away, so the support network is lacking. I have acquaintances but none who know the real pre BPD girlfriend me! I think I may have to go one holiday!

I have done a lot of deep soul searching... .it's all i have done. I am yet to break down in tears. That must come at some point... .I don't even know what greiving is?