Yeah, this is progress - you are way more calm than I would have been in your shoes!
Yesterday I noticed there was a vm on my phone (my ex is blocked on all avenues... . phone , text email etc etc)
I go to listen and it's her... . hello it's me it's 7 o'clock ... I need to talk to you goodbye!
I immediately had that sudden feeling of anxiety... . my pulse quickened a bit... . and I felt ... . quite honestly ... . like s&$t!
I have only communicated with her through my lawyer and up until this point she has co operated ... . So this is confusing to me!
Confusion and anxiety is how you should feel - this is normal because she is changing the established rules.
Firstly... . I feel good about the fact that my reaction was that "mild" ... . and that I only ruminated and had heightened feelings for less than a day... .
Progress?
that sounds like progress to me - the fact you didn't react/respond is really progress too.
I am not looking forward to seeing her in court... . but have been working on myself and the fact that I'll be stronger once that day comes... .
If your day is like mine, my anxiety up to the point was worse than actually seeing her.
But I cannot help but feel that this is significant progress for me?
Celebrate that progress Cimbaruns - you have been through a lot to earn it!
Secondly... . I cannot help but wonder what she could possibly want?
Only natural to wonder? And to feel a little anxious about it?
It's kind of thrown me off ... .
human nature to wonder and it is likely personal in nature or she would go through the attorney. Remember, it really could be a fleeting moment too - her poor impulse control.
One thing I have learned over the years here - if she has something to say to you, she will find a way - if it was a reaction to something else, she has already let that go and you are the only one thinking about it.
Keep up the good work and celebrate the success - it does look like progress to me... . a few months ago, you would have been very anxious and contacted her... . good job
Peace,
SB
