Thanks for sharing, Xidion. I know it can be painful re-reading something like that. Oh, the emails and texts I could share of what my ex would tell me... .Unlike yours, mine was very open with his feelings for me... .And he was so good with words.
It's always interesting looking back on things like this. That's sad that's the only time she expressed to you her feelings. Crazy how we can see so much more now than we were able to at the time when we're in love and in the FOG.
For starters, I really know who I am, I know what I want out of life and what I need to do to achieve it. Every morning I wake up, I envision my future. All I want is to have a close family, an amazing husband, and to experience all life has to offer.
That sounds familiar. I'm sure it is what they want. Maybe even more desperately than the average person. It's sad that they ruin that for themselves.
Also familiar is the part about accepting her weaknesses. At the beginning he would tell me that he wasn't perfect but he was trying and he would get better in time. After awhile it changed to that he would get somewhat better but would probably always have some issues and I should love him for who he is. (During arguments he would say that I only love him conditionally). In the end it was that this is who he is and I can take it or leave it. He also loved to say to me, "if you don't like it, there's the door." All the while, on a good day he would tell me that he appreciated the fact that I didn't accept him treating me poorly (even though I obviously did) and said that one was one of the things he loved about me and it made him want to be a better person... .I think he was in and out of denial. It was such a mind game.
