My rage letter that I won't send.

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

How could you walk all over me and not even bat an eye? How could you judge me constantly? How could you always play the victim? I'm freaking pissed. I can't believe I let you treat me like this. I'm mad at myself for letting you do this to me. I'm tired of holding in the rage.

I loved you with some sort of absolute faith and you betrayed it. I'm tired of trying to rise above the fray. What you did to me was freaking deplorable. I went from being a meek and kind person to a person scared of their own breath, scared of their own heartbeat and bitter and mad all the time. Your idea of love is sick. I don't even care if your mentally ill. Today, I'm mad for me, I deserve it. Screw you.

[BuildingFromScratch]

How could you walk all over me and not even bat an eye? How could you judge me constantly? How could you always play the victim? I'm freaking pissed. I can't believe I let you treat me like this. I'm mad at myself for letting you do this to me. I'm tired of holding in the rage.

I loved you with some sort of absolute faith and you betrayed it. I'm tired of trying to rise above the fray. What you did to me was freaking deplorable. I went from being a meek and kind person to a person scared of their own breath, scared of their own heartbeat and bitter and mad all the time. Your idea of love is sick. I don't even care if your mentally ill. Today, I'm mad for me, I deserve it. Screw you.

[Copperfox]

Definitely good to get it out.  A good therapeutic process.  I've written dozens of these in the past, seems like ages ago.  But never sent them, of course.  Sounds like you are not planning to either, which is good.

Just in case you need any reinforcement about not sending, this might help - Why not to write a Blame Letter:

https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=123984.msg1221875#msg1221875

Silence is golden.  Good luck in your processing!

[mrwigand]

Yeah, I certainly have a few things like this written myself, but like you I never sent them. I never really meant to send them. They were more for me, making I sure I knew how I didn't deserve so much of the behavior I was subjected to. After you figure that out for yourself, sending something like just seems unnecessarily hurtful.