New Start

[joel6242]

I have gone through hell like no one has ever gone through. I spent every penny, stopped working, and moved to Florida to fix my exBPD (THIS STATEMENT IS VERY POWERFUL TO ME). For me I had to take responsibility for what I had done in this relationship. My exBPD has used others to hurt me. The first time was when I went to jail and lost my job because he said I hit him, I threw his drug dealer out of our house. The case was dismissed and three weeks later I had to file domestic violence charges on him for threatening to kill me. Of course I gave him three more chances after this.

When we meet I got him a dog and he would not part with that dog. I tried to get him back several times because he would hit and abuse the dog. After the last incident I found out why he gave me the dog. He  was prostituting himself and selling drugs and the dog was in the way. I knew that he loved the dog but his selfishness was never going to allow unconditional love like a dog can give. He cheated on me and will not leave the small town I live in in Florida. I fear his friends and the people that he can manipulate. He is out of my life and I have a permanent restraining order on him.

It would take a book to list everything he did. He put me in jail twice on false charges. I lost jobs because of this guy. I had multiple nervous break downs.

Today I have the dog and we are doing good, he need some stability though. The poor dog has gone through as much as I have. At the first of the month I was going to file bankruptcy and loose my house. A lot of miracles happened and I should be good and will move due to a new job that will pay enough to get out of finical difficulty. Many good things happened and I am on the boarder to end all of this and get a new start. Tomorrow is a new day.