Awareness

[jminnick3]

Greetings. I was recommended the book Stop Walking on Eggshells from my therapist and I am about three quarters the way through and it has been an eye opener for me. It was like the authors were watching a video of the past 25 years of my marriage and decided to write a book about it. I have described to my therapist that I feel as if I'm walking into a room I'm familiar with but the lights are turned off and I'm trying to make my way to the next room but the room I'm trying to navigate through in the dark is covered with trip wires and at any moment I will step on one and an explosion will happen. That is the best way I can describe this relationship. I have isolated myself from friends. I have played "if only I had done this" and "I should have done this" many times. This is a constant and has been for many years and have blamed myself for her explosive rages. I am finally relieved to at least know that I'm not some massively defective person.

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[Tattered Heart]

Hi jminnick3,

Welcome ,

What a great analogy to what living with some with BPD can be like. Thankfully you found this site! You'll find lots of support here and hopefully you can begin to make some headway in improving your relationship.

We have a lot of great workshops on the right side of the page. These workshops can help you learn more about being in a relationship with someone with BPD, communication tools, and self care workshops. I would suggest this as a great place to start. Looking forward to getting to know you and more about your situation.