Being emotionally abused: afraid for my own sanity, in living hell.

[SassyT]

Really hurting from the sudden splitting and now I am ravaged
From her unfair rage that has annihilated me empty
And fearful for my sanity. I have been booby-trapped by this disease and  so irreplaceablly wounded. Getting psych help for myself. I am isolated and live in fear. I am disabled but am making plans to rebalance my heart and leave once I get my finances in order. Waiting for my disability hearing for deafnessness, a major depression and ptsd.
I quit but also lost my job at the hair salon partly because my boss was also abusive but mostly because I could not hide being a BPD’s lover being a WALKING WOUNDED with nowhere to go in the overpriced SF BayArea. For now reading all I can to protect myself. Please help me not
Want to implode from this living hell. Thank you.

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[pearlsw]

Hi SassyT,

Sorry to hear you are at your wit's end!

Can you give us a little more background here please? How long have you been together, etc.?

What are you feeling afraid of, dear?

Do you have any friends or family you can spend some time with for support/comfort?

warmly, pearl.

[Tattered Heart]

Hi SassyT,

I"m sorry that you've experienced a job loss due to the effects of BPD. Were you depressed at work? or was your pwBPD making it hard for you to work peacefully?

I hope the counseling you are getting for yourself can help. You mentioned you are isolated. Do you have any family or friends that you could start spending more time with to help releve some of the feelings of loneliness?