Hi and welcome!
NC, LC and even full contact can all involve a lot of intense emotions. All of it is difficult to cope with. We understand that here and many of us are working through deciding what level of contact we want and some have already made that decision. Also, some of us see LC or NC as being open to changing depending on where we are in our healing.
I am finding it hard to engage with either of these activities. I just would rather not waste any more time on her or these issues. I would like to put this all in a neat little box under my bed and forget it exists. At the same time feeling like I know better than that, these issues are not truly going to just go away, they always have a way of bubbling to the surface.
Did it take you time to really feel engaged in this emotional work?
Can I suggest changing the focus to you and your healing and learning new ways to cope with anxiety and other difficult emotions? I believe you are right that the issues will not go away, or at least they did not for me and I tried for years.
You mentioned feeling anxious at the possibility of running into your mother. I have read other members mention the same concern so you are not alone. What else are you concerned with? How can we help you?
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